34. EXT. SAMPING GUDANG SEKOLAH. SIANG

CAST : CARAKA GIANDRA

Caraka membuka loker dan surat yang ditemukannya di loker tua itu.

CARAKA

Mari baca suratnya sebelum bertemu dengannya.

(membaca surat)

TEXT :

I have asked the candle, "do I have a place in this world?".

CARAKA

(terkejut sekaligus bingung)

Apa yang…?

(kembali membaca surat)

TEXT :

The candle didn't answer me. Then I asked again, "do I have something that is mine?". The candle still didn't answer me. So I wiped the candle which melted as if it was crying seeing me. It understands. The melt seemed to prove it was sorry for me. Because of that, I asked for the last time, "is that black shadow still trying to reach me?". The melt that flowed answer me, told me that it was still there.

Then to calm it down, I told the candle that my fear was insignificant, inexplicable. I told the candle-like I was verbally speaking to you, the locker. About everything.

My fears are vague. Sometimes attack me, sometimes I play with it. I don't even know the point. Then how do I explain it? I do not know. The more I described, the more I didn't know.

However, with a bitter sense of trembling fear overpowered my soul along with a thundering roar. It was like that when the fear comes to me.

CARAKA

(serius membaca surat seraya menggaruk kepalanya)

TEXT :

I do not understand. Maybe you don't understand either.

CARAKA

What?

(kembali membaca surat)

TEXT :

All I want to do is whisper to the world that I exist. My existence exists. Just whisper, not scream. But why do they even call me weird?

I don't understand, just as I try to make sense of my fear. I don't understand, don't understand myself, my fears, my desires that sometimes mix with my fears, don't understand them, don't understand my parents, don't understand the world and anything.

I remember having one fact that I've been hiding. A fact that I will finally tell you.

It's a fact that all of this has to do with the person I want to find and meet.

warm hug,

Candala.

CARAKA

(menengadah)

Siapa yang dia cari?

FADE OUT

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35. INT. DEPAN RUANG MUSIK. SIANG

CAST : CARAKA GIANDRA

Caraka berjalan cepat menuju ruang musik.

CARAKA (VO)

(menggigit jari)

Mengapa suratnya jadi sulit dipahami? Aku sudah menduganya kalau akan ada saatnya dia menulis segala ocehannya. Semua curhatannya. Tapi aku tak menduganya kalau akan sulit dipahami seperti tadi. Kemarin baru permulaannya dan sekarang benar-benar tak bisa kupahami. Aku tidak bisa menanyakan hal itu pada Ayah, Ibu atau Arisha lagi. Kemarin saja sudah membuat mereka menanyakan hal yang tidak-tidak.

Ketika sampai di depan ruang musik, Caraka mengintip sekilas ke dalam.

CARAKA (VO)

Untunglah, mereka belum keluar.

(berbalik, menyandarkan tubuhnya pada dinding dan tatapannya nanar)

Aku harus bagaimana?

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